hee hee...another one after soo long again...i'm not a good blogger la

Life seemed to have taken a form of routine....but the most important thing in life is to at least learn soemthing everyday and in a year, i would have learnt 365 new things to add to my "PC". Having worked at SIX for the past few months, i realised how important it is to smile and be confident in the way one have to present themselves to make others feel comfortable and welcomed especially in the service line. Being a singaporean myself i see that we can sometimes become so focused about doing sth that we fail to realise that the customer is human too. Something that i struggle with at times is to get myself out of the robotic and emotionless mode and put on a smile and ask a "How are you today sir/Mdm?" especially when i most do not want to.

So many things had happened over the past few months that i kindda lost the touch of writing. Most of my time is taken up with doing things or taking a break (defines as a snooze). However, that doesn't mean i have since stopped thinking about the things of life. Something so important that i realised over the past months is to not always follow what your desires tell you to.

To not write an email or even send a "How have you been?" SMS due to our laziness to an old fren, mite lead to the loss of a wonderful frenship that took years to built up.
To yield to anger and frustrations in the spur of the moment, might hurt someone so special that it takes a long time to heal.

I have been lazy, lazy to up date....1 month had passed since i last updated and whenever i'm online...i try to avoid coming to my blog. Not so sure whats the fear for but i beginning to think that bloggin is just not my thing. I know its a good way of keeping you pple updated but i reali i'm not a person who yearns so much to share so much of my life to strangers. I'm still thinking about keeping this blog. But guess i do just update every once in a while for my dearest frens out there who can be oceans away or just a few blocks away.

Its jsut another 7 days till we meet again and another 3 weeks before the BIG day arrive. I'm starting to get more and more excited as the day draw nearer and have been so busy gettin all the wedding preparations done. Just got the groomsmen attire today, took Sarah and i like the entire avro to look for the best top that can go with the entire theme of the wedding and we spent a good $130 just on the groom's and groom's men attire. I'm pretty contented and satisfied with the clothes that we bought today. Think everything is starting to fall into place. I realised so much better it is to have a reali good fren who knows you likes and dislikes to be with you while doing shopping for occasions so special. A close fren that has good taste and honesty as well. Sarah is the perfect person to go with. You can always count on her to give her honest opinion and her good taste on complementing the colours of the attire with the theme. Well, i'm recommending her as the perfect wedding planner and anyone getting married next shld look her up ah...

The bridesmaids and i went for a bridal fitting last week and all i can say is that the seamstress have done an awesome job. The bridesmaids are wearing something of a pastel single strap dress with netting peeping from the bottom of the knee length dress. And i would be wearing something that would only be revealed to the rest of the world on the wedding day itself. Not that its absolutely secretive, i'm just at loss at how to comment on whatever that i wld be wearing. Anyways, its always exciting to be looking forward to something that had been anticipated for a good period. All i can say is that i reali do have difficulty in breathing in this dress. Guess, its time i should stop slouching and stand up straight and have more confidence in myself. No more slouching!!! Tsk! Must remember ah!!

And instructions from Auntie, the wedding planner, "Must go home, wear your heels and walk around with the heaviest book you can find, till you can walk properly without the book falling off." Ai yoo....all i can hope is not to fall flat on my face while walking down the aisle to my beloved groom.. But well, even if i trip and fall, it prob be one memorable experience which would make our wedding one memorable one for the guests and us .

These remaining few days are all about meeting up with pple and packing, and spending quiet time with my room, dogs and family saying quiet goodbyes to the memories of the past. Its always when that you most dun want to leave. I feel so stuck. Cos on one hand, i'm looking forward to be with Josh again. Yet at the same time, i feel so sad to leave all my church frens, family, dogs especially Keiko, room, childhood and teenhood memories etc...

Many have reminded me constantly not to forget my culture and heritage and traditions as a chinese. I jsut cannot stand it when people say,"How come you forgetting all your traditions and culture even before you go over? Ai yo...dun forget you are still a chinese ah.." As much as i see their reminder as an act of love and concern, I know and thank God that i'm a chinese. Its a fact that i have never resent of and would never for i'm proud to be an asian chinese. There's no way anything is going to change the colour of my eyes, my skin, my hair colour (until age gets on me), my thinking etc. Go ahead and ask Josh, i'm about as chinese as i can get. Relationship is always about learning to be more and more like one. So how can i not change and expect Josh to do all the compromising and bending for me? I cant expect myself to remain the same Wei'er as i am right now and last time. But i know i can expect both of us to become more and more Christ like. Does God differentiate us by our colur or race? Does God emphasize more on becoming more and more like one as a married couple or does he say we must remain unyielding to each other keeping our own culture? Won't it so be so much better to come up with your new family traditions in marriage itself esp since each come from a different culture, family upbringing and country?