I'm lonely but not......I'm surrounded with friends and family but still don't feel complete. I'm missing him again. It would not be as bad if I know I can reach him within a dial. But thanks to the unfeeling and cold military people (who cares what they are call in army terms!), no calls are allowed to be made for the first week or two!! I have no idea what sort of purpose does that achieve but I do know that I have gone cold turkey for like 3 full days = 27 hours without hearing his voice! That's like the longest I have ever gone not talking to him since we started going out !!!!!
Have you ever get this unsettling feeling in you for no particular reason and you know only talking to that special person would soothe it? Maybe its just my personality that I struggle with heaps of insecurities all the time and only by sharing it with him will they subside. I'm also curious to know how he is going on with this training and if he is enjoying every moment of it. I know he will.
Besides me missing him, Tashy definitely does too. Though she still thinks he is on a plane (cos that was what we told her when we sent J off at the airport) , she often looks forward to his calls. Now that he does not call at all, T always race to get my mobile or house phone whenever she hears it ringing in hope that its Joshy who is on the other line.
Love.......God really created love to be such a mysterious thing.
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*Big hug* Very cliche to say I know how you feel, but I really do... :)
As each day passes by without him, you know you are one day closer to being reunited! And sometimes, for myself in particular, it's God's own way of renewing my dependence upon Him instead of him.
May the Lord keep you three safe in His arm even if you are away from each other.
thanks lots, gurlfren!!! good to know someone understands. =)
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